So I’m at that point in my life where I should be “settling down” or so my family and friends keep telling me. The only problem is I don’t feel the same way. I wouldn’t mind being in a relationship but a wedding and children are not on my immediate horizon. I still like coming home to my place and doing my own thing. I don’t feel like I’m out of my selfish phase or that I should adjust how I feel to appease anyone else.
While I am happy for my friends who are happily married or having kids I can say that I’m nowhere near envious. I admire the strength that they have and they are finding a way to make it work. I also see the friends who are struggling not only for themselves but for the other people they are responsible for.
When If I have kids I don’t see myself not being able to give them everything they want and more.
I have been lucky enough to have found jobs where I could learn and grow while going to school. Ideally I want to settle into a career making decent enough money so I won’t have to worry about myself and my family financially. It takes a lot of sacrifice but I’m not getting any younger so I have to keep trucking.